Today has been such a good day, along with yesterday, and the day before:) Well as previously mentioned my dad left when I was a baby, and I have not exactly had contact with him. Regardless of our lack of contact I knew of my younger sister. We talked a little bit when we were both younger, but over time we somehow lost touch. That was until about a year or two ago when I decided that she was probably old enough to have a myspace. I searched for her, and what do you know! I found her. I messaged her, and we exchanged phone numbers, and next thing we knew we were talking up a storm texting all the time. As expected a lot of our conversation was about our dad, and the whole situation for why he left me. He was involved in her life, and we both could not seem to understand why he wasn't in mine. After a lot of hesitation I finally decided to get his e-mail address, because that seemed to be the easiest way to confront such a emotional situation. Eventually I sent him an e-mail, and we emailed back and forth for a few months. Well at some point I had lost his e-mail, and he never emailed me again so I could send him something. For a little while I dwelt on the fact that he never emailed me again, and that it seemed I held all the responsibility to our communication. Well last week I hung out with my wonderful, awesome, beautiful sister Sydnee, and once again we talked about our dad. A few days later I had her get me his email again, and finally sent him something. He emailed me back much faster than I had anticipated and after the talks with my sister, and receiving his email I was no longer mad at him for never emailing, but rather just happy to be talking to him period. Excited by his response I emailed him back as soon as I got it, and because he had emailed back so quickly the first time I expected it again. Day after day I was disappointed when I repeatedly checked my inbox only to find five new spam emails, and none from my dad. I began doubting his first email and everything I had felt before. However, I knew I should still just give it some time, and consider the possibilities for why he had not replied yet. I constantly reminded myself that maybe he just wasn't in his office, and that he was just busy. I even considered that he might not have received my email so I decided to email him on Easter to wish him and his family a good day. Monday-no reply. Then today I woke up, and before I left the house I got a feeling and sure enough I checked my email and he'd replied! I was happy and relieved when he confirmed mine and Syd's theories that he hadn't been in his office, and was just busy with work. For some reason I was never really able to fully forgive him, but now after talking to him I find that it's almost the easiest thing to do. I realize that he was young, and over time he just didn't want to make things hard on me and intrude in my life(because my family didn't want him to).
Other perks of the day include:
-Got my eyebrows shaped for the first time, and they look great!
-Talked to Rachel
-Met some awesome people!
-Got to play with my woobie!(My 2 year old brother)
-And This....
Just a little something for anyone who cares to see! Today while I was procrastinating on my homework I decided to put together a little cute table, just because:) It's something that is super easy to create, easy on the eyes, and easy on the wallet! It can be used for anything you like: occasion, family dinner..etc. and it creates a sweet feel of spring/summer time.
I used some old cute plates I found in my cabinets, some linen napkins in a random drawer, mason and glass jars that I s
ave( and you should too! you never know when you could use them!), some decorative fake flowers, a little 2 dollar basket, an old white tablecloth, apple candle,fresh apples, sweet raspberry tea, my uncles delicious cupcakes, and my delightful friendship bread! Well thats all for that:)
Here's a look at what's to come:
oh and there is sooooo much more!;)
LMB.
